Few memories.......

Almost I have completed my half of the time in this world and i thought of writing what all I went through in last 30 years.
When I thought of writing something about my life, lot of things came to my mind. loads of people , lot of memorable moments. happy and sad moments

Let me start of from the time when i came to this world. My parents were from Andhra and they were in Hindupur, which is around 130 kms from Bangalore.
They were in a nuclear, joint family before my birth. Mom used to tell me after my birth they had to live separately. what a beginning I came in and families got separated. :)


I was born in Vayalpad which is in Andhra  around 90kms from Tirupathi.
me and my cousin brother Prasad where born in the same house , when i first heard that i was born in a home rather then a hospital I was amazed about it.


When I look back at my childhood, i hardly remember anything . what ever few things i remember when i was in LKG/UKG was that we used to sit on the ground for the classes
and all of us were crying all the time. Our school was Chinmaya vidyalaya, Hindupur wherein me and my elder brother Naveen studied there.

My parents used to tell few things about me even now that

I used to asked them why cant we go jogging/walking in cycle-rickshaw.

My Brother Naveen studied till 3th standard and i finished my KG there and my parents moved to garden city , The great Bangalore.

It was some where in 1986 jan or so when we moved to Bangalore.

My younger brother Shravan was 5 months old then; I vaguely remember that me and my dad came in lorry while shifting to Bangalore
May be that was my first and last lorry experience.

We stayed in Rajajingar a high populated area and one of the well known places in Bangalore.
My parents got lot of suggestions from various people about the schools near our houses.
My parents decide to join us to Assumption School which was famously called as Church school.

It was hardly a kilometer from my house but we had to cross a big main road which we were scared of.
at least me in initial days. It was called "Dr Rajkuamr road"

Dad opened a provision store which was facing the Rajkumar road.
Every day before going to school we used to say bye to dad and mom used to make us cross the main road.

Indeed it was one of wonderful days having chocolates from the shop everyday :) before leaving to the school.

Assumption school..hmmm, I have loads of memories here but I hardly remember any of my friends from this school.
I was one of the dullest/dumb students in the class :)
Nothing was going into my head whatever teachers used to tell. I was always coming last ...at least 10 top from the last :).
I used to struggle to pass any subjects. Maths was only subject which I used to pass easily.
My brother who was studying in the same school used to be a topper always and I was the other way.

I was in Assumption school till 7th standard , after which i moved to Sri Vani eduction center.
This transition was something i was looking for wherein I made so many friends whom I can share lot of things even now.

Lord Vishnu


"Lord Vishnu is just like a great tree, and all others, including the demigods, men, Siddhas, Caranas, Vidyadharas and other living entities, are like branches, twigs and leaves of that tree. By pouring water on the root of the tree, all the parts of the tree are automatically nourished. Only those branches and leaves which are detached cannot be so satisfied. Detached branches and leaves dry up gradually despite all watering attempts. Similarly, human society, when it is detached from the Personality of Godhead like detached branches and leaves, is not capable of being watered, and one attempting to do so is simply wasting his energy and resources."


"For self-realization, the people in Satya-yuga, living a lifetime of a hundred thousand years, were able to perform prolonged meditation.

And in Treta-yuga, when the duration of life was ten thousand years, self-realization was attained by performance of great sacrifice.

And in the Dvapara-yuga, when the duration of life was one thousand years, self-realization was attained by worship of the Lord.

But in the Kali-yuga, the maximum duration of life being one hundred years only and that combined with various difficulties, the recommended process of self-realization is that of hearing and chanting of the holy name, fame, and pastimes of the Lord."


Everyone tries to make a permanent plan for happiness, but everyone is baffled by the laws of material nature

Therefore the materialistic world is called the darkest region of God's creation.

The whole world is full of questions and answers

Rasas


"In the revealed scriptures the following twelve varieties of rasas are enumerated:
(1) raudra (anger)
 (2) adbhuta (wonder)
 (3) sringara (conjugal love)
 (4) hasya (comedy)
 (5) vira (chivalry)
 (6) daya (mercy)
 (7) dasya (servitorship)
 (8) sakhya (fraternity)
 (9) bhayanaka (horror)
 (10) bibhatsa (shock)
 (11) santa (neutrality)
 (12) vatsalya (parenthood).

The sum total of all these rasas is called affection or love"

Bhagavad Gita As It Is - Chapter 18 Text 51-53

buddhya visuddhaya yukto
dhrtyatmanam niyamya ca
sabdadin visayams tyaktva
raga-dvesau vyudasya ca

vivikta-sevi laghv-asi
yata-vak-kaya-manasah
dhyana-yoga-paro nityam
vairagyam samupasritah

ahankaram balam darpam
kamam krodham parigraham
vimucya nirmamah santo
brahma-bhuyaya kalpate


TRANSLATION

Being purified by his intelligence and controlling the mind with determination, giving up the objects of sense gratification, being freed from attachment and hatred, one who lives in a secluded place, who eats little, who controls his body, mind and power of speech, who is always in trance and who is detached, free from false ego, false strength, false pride, lust, anger, and acceptance of material things, free from false proprietorship, and peaceful--such a person is certainly elevated to the position of self-realization.


PURPORT

When one is purified by intelligence, he keeps himself in the mode of goodness. Thus one becomes the controller of the mind and is always in trance. He is not attached to the objects of sense gratification, and he is free from attachment and hatred in his activities. Such a detached person naturally prefers to live in a secluded place, he does not eat more than what he requires, and he controls the activities of his body and mind. He has no false ego because he does not accept the body as himself. Nor has he a desire to make the body fat and strong by accepting so many material things. Because he has no bodily concept of life, he is not falsely proud. He is satisfied with everything that is offered to him by the grace of the Lord, and he is never angry in the absence of sense gratification. Nor does he endeavor to acquire sense objects. Thus when he is completely free from false ego, he becomes nonattached to all material things, and that is the stage of self-realization of Brahman. That stage is called the brahma-bhuta stage. When one is free from the material conception of life, he becomes peaceful and cannot be agitated. This is described in Bhagavad-gita (2.70):

apuryamanam acala-pratistham
samudram apah pravisanti yadvat
tadvat kama yam pravisanti sarve
sa santimn apnoti na kama-kami

"A person who is not disturbed by the incessant flow of desires--that enter like rivers into the ocean, which is ever being filled but is always still--can alone achieve peace, and not the man who strives to satisfy such desires."

 A Bitter Reality.

ONE BEDROOM FLAT... WRITTEN BY AN INDIAN SOFTWARE ENGINEER...-

As the dream of most parents I had acquired a degree in Software Engineering and joined a company based in USA, the land of braves and opportunity.

When I arrived in the USA, it was as if a dream had come true. Here at last I was in the place where I want to be. I decided I would be staying in this country for about Five years in which time I would have earned enough money to settle down in India.

My father was a government employee and after his retirement, the only asset he could acquire was a decent one bedroom flat.

I wanted to do something more than him. I started feeling homesick and lonely as the time passed. I used to call home and speak to my parents every week using cheap international phone cards. Two years passed, two years of Burgers at McDonald's and pizzas and discos and 2 years watching the foreign exchange rate getting happy whenever the Rupee value went down.


Finally I decided to get married. I told my parents that I have only 10 days of holidays and everything must be done within these 10 days. I got my ticket booked in the cheapest flight. Was jubilant and was actually enjoying hopping for gifts for all my friends back home.? If I miss anyone then there will be talks. After reaching home I spent home one week going through all the photographs of girls and as the time was getting shorter
I was forced to select one candidate.

In-laws told me, to my surprise, that I would have to get married in 2-3 days, as I will not get anymore holidays. After the marriage, it was time to return to USA, after giving some money to my parents and telling the neighbors to look after them, we returned to USA.

My wife enjoyed this country for about two months and then she started feeling lonely. The frequency of calling India increased to twice in a week sometimes 3 times a week. Our savings started diminishing.

After two more years we started to have kids. Two lovely kids, a boy and a girl, were gifted to us by the almighty. Every time I spoke to my parents, they asked me to come to India so that they can see their grand-children.

Every year I decide to go to India. But part work part monetary
conditions prevented it. Years went by and visiting India was a distant dream.

Then suddenly one day I got a message that my parents were seriously sick. I tried but I couldn't get any holidays and thus could not go to India.

The next message I got was my parents had passed away and as there was no one to do the last rights the society members had done whatever they could. I was depressed. My parents had passed away without seeing their grand children.

After couple more years passed away, much to my children's dislike and my wife's joy we returned to India to settle down. I started to look for a suitable property, but to my dismay my savings were short and the property prices had gone up during all these years. I had to return to the USA.

My wife refused to come back with me and my children refused to stay in India. My 2 children and I returned to USA after promising my wife I would be back for good after two years.

Time passed by, my daughter decided to get married to an American and my son was happy living in USA. I decided that had enough and wound-up every thing and returned to India. I had just enough money to buy a decent 02 bedroom flat in a well-developed locality.

Now I am 60 years old and the only time I go out of the flat is for the routine visit to the nearby temple. My faithful wife has also left me and gone to the holy abode.

Sometimes I wondered was it worth all this? My father, even after
staying in India, had a house to his name and I too have the same nothing more. I lost my parents and children for just ONE EXTRA BEDROOM.

Looking out from the window I see a lot of children dancing. This
damned cable TV has spoiled our new generation and these children are losing their values and culture because of it. I get occasional cards from my children asking I am alright. Well at least they remember me.

Now perhaps after I die it will be the neighbours again who will be performing my last rights, God Bless them. But the question still
remains 'was all this worth it?'

I am still searching for an answer................!!!!

left-brain/right-brain conflict


We have heard many instances where in people say that they had actually foreseen some place or some instances, which they later came across in real life.

This is actually sometimes confused to be a vision of the future. But science explains it and is popularly called as the "left-brain/right-brain conflict".
Here the data you get through your visual sense has to go to both the left and right brain. If there is even a small delay in the data reaching one of the brains i.e if it doesnt occur simultaneously then the data that reached one of the brains suddenly becomes past. So when your other brain gets this same data it recognizes it to be past and gives u the feeling that the incident has already occured

YOGA

When I hear word "Yoga" ....my mind goes to a state which is hard to control

Yogachander , I meet this guy in my 2nd year of Engineering
He was the last person to enter the class always,but he was the topper in our class.
little i know about this guy , but i was a admirer of this person who used to be so brilliant.
Cool ,Calm and intelligen.

We all passed out of the engineering in 2002 , He was one among the topper in our class.

Days went by........

Got a bad news from one of my frnd that Yoga had blood cancer. :(
He was suffering from Blood cancer from 6 years or so.
But nobody knew about it in our class.

We had been to Kidwas hospital to meet him after hearing the news .
We were in tears when we saw Yoga vomiting blood over there.
Its a pain to watch some one suffering.

He was back to home but still suffering and counting his days.
He got a job in satyam in Hyderabad
He was so eager to work in big software companies like most of us.
But lord had other ideas for him.

Had been to his house to just meet him once.
He was the same Yoga jovial,calm....

He called in "KP hengidiya maga ...yeli kelsa madtha idiya ? yavder mele kelsa "
That was my last meeting with him.

A year back we got the news from my Friend that Yoga is no more.

It was more saddening that none of us be there when he breathed his last on sat,8 Jan 2005

We all miss you Yoga.

Why do people blog ?

Is it because they cant tell all the things to some one ?
To know about their thoughts w.r.t to others ?
Time pass ?
Best place to spread there thoughts ?


I still don't know y ?

Does that matter to know why people blog....?

god knows ...anyway this is my first post.:)